Thursday, October 1, 2015

Genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang!

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Salam'alaiykum. I am an engineering student and i need help. I find myself lack of motivation on engineering subjects and somehow now i found myself really attracted to Qur'anic studies which i discovered through youtube lectures. They are very profound. I feel it brings me closer to fathom and love Allah more as i should be. Should i carry both on my shoulders or drop the worldly means? Chances are odd as for my parents. Would they be happy?


Wa’alaikomissalaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu,

May Allah Azza Wa Jall make it easy for you. Amin.

What I am about to tell you is based on my own experience, the last decision will always stay and depend on you, remember that no matter how many people would tell or advise you about this and that, it all goes back to its roots, which is yourself. 

However, I request that you think about this with the help of Allah Azza Wa Jall, make du’a and even make istikhara about this, nothing happens in the life of a believer except that it is for the good of him - keep this in mind. in sha Allah.

When I was in the mid semester of my sophomore years in college, I felt the same thing you are feeling now. Alhamdulillah for the ways Allah Azza Wa Jall calls us to Him. 

I had 2 more years left before I finish my studies, which for me seemed to be such a long way to go, but as I learned and I studied along with the Qur’an I realized that being kind and doing things that would make your parents happy is also an act of worship to Allah Azza Wa Jall.

I’ve been in your shoes 6 years ago, I was a mass communication student, so my field of study is about how to communicate to people and I mean diverse people. True, that for some days I started to feel as if I didn’t want to pursue my secular studies and was eager to change or reroute myself into Islamic studies, so I started making du’a, and all those things we basically would hear from people we seek advice from.

But what made me take my decision was that, whenever I made du’a, I did not made a du’a that says like Ya Allah, please let my parents agree that I go into Islamic studies and I leave what I am studying right now.” Rather I made a du’a that is what I would call, a generous du’a. 

I made du’a that Allah guides me on what to choose that would not hurt my parents nor would make me go away from my desire of studying the deen and my worship to Him, that if this degree I am trying to gain would help me serve the Ummah or bring me closer to Him and His Deen, then please fill my heart with the desire to finish it with flying colors and make it beneficial for me and the rest of the Ummah, and if this degree that I am trying to gain would stray me away from my worship from you and would empty my heart from the desire I have for studying the deen then please enlighten the hearts of my parents and guide them to understand that what I want to do is for our benefit in the akhirah.

And just put all your trust in Allah Azza Wa Jall, and be patient, be very patient. 

And I am telling you, Allah will put you in situations wherein you would realize which one would be better for you. 

As for me, as I struggled to finish my degree, I realized that being the only Muslim lady in my batch, Allah made me realize that standing firm on my decision to fulfill and finish my degree for my parents’ happiness brought such an impact on my batchmates that some of them have reverted to Islam, and some of them had a change of perspective on our religion and how some of my professors view Muslim ladies (now) as brilliant students who know well their roots, their religion and in amidst the calamity of discrimination they would excel. Yes, that somehow through that four years, a voice emerged that spoke to their souls. Alhamdulillah.

I would personally tell you, to continue your studies and finish as an engineer, and when you are engineer, create or build something that would benefit the Ummah, that would help the Muslims, now that you are there, even build an engineering firm or sth and bring Muslims work and livelihood, be there, go first, and the rest would follow. May Allah give you success both here and in the akhirah. Amin.

Also, as you build this, do not forget the desire you have to study the deen, as you go on with these years of finishing your studies, give a full day on studying the deen, or even 10 minutes after you wake up for Fajr of before you sleep after I’sha, give that full 10 minutes on dhikr, reading the Qur’an, let Allah Azza Wa Jall be your companion through this struggle. He had always been with You, just you now, its different because, you finally recognize that He’s with You.

And once you finish your studies and you are now an engineer, go and hunt an Islamic teacher to help you study the deen. (Basically, that’s how I did it. I found my own shaykha to teach me, and help me in both my hifdh and arabic studies. May Allah Azza Wa Jall bless our teachers in Islam.)

I pray for your success my dear brother or sister in deen. Amin

May Allah Azza Wa Jall make us meet someday, if not in the dunya then I pray in Jannah! Amin

I hope my experience was worth telling and would help you on making the right decision. 

InsyaAllah. Impian di hati ini ingin melanjutkan pengajian hingga ke peringkat tertinggi, Master/PhD, InsyaAllah. Kemudian ingin menimba ilmu ukhrawi juga. Meski berseorangan, meskipun lambat, meskipun ketinggalan di belakang, aku akan tetap berjalan kehadapan tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Dengan berbekalkan kekuatan dari sandaran dan pergantunganku pada Yang Maha Berkuasa, serta semangat dan dorongan yang tidak pernah putus dari keluarga tersayang & sahabat handai. InsyaAllah, hingga ke penghujungnya. Menuntut ilmu sehingga kedua mata ini terpejam buat selamanya. 

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