Semalam, aku jatuh cinta pandang pertama...

Di sebuah kedai Bata di Shah Alam Mall. Sekali pandang terus terpana dan aku cuba untuk mendekatinya. Dengan hati-hati aku ambil dan sarungkan ke kaki kiriku. Fuhh!! So comfy, macam cushion lembutnya. Ku cuba berjalan ke kiri dan ke kanan, amazingly it fit just nice with my feet. Dear Hema Scholl, I'll always remember your name for now, until that day come, the day that you'll be mine forever, for sure. 

Sabar jap tau sayam <3

Current Addiction : Fukushi Sota

Memandangkan dalam beberapa hari sahaja lagi, status aku sebagai seorang penganggur terhormat akan terlucut secara tidak berapa rasminya, maka inilah masa yang terbaik untuk aku marathon Jdrama + Janime buat yang terakhir kalinya. Cewwah, macam lepas ni dah tak boleh menghadap laptop langsung je. Haha. Tapi ya lah, biasanya aku tengok kawan-kawan aku yang dah berkerjaya yang dulu hantu Kdrama, bila dah start berkerjaya, dah tak ada masa nak menonton dah. So yeah, let's cherish the final moment to the last bit. 

Entah, tak ingat macam mana boleh terjebak dengan Jpop ni. Yang aku ingat, mula-mula saja-saja nak tengok One Punch Man, then tiba-tiba rasa nak re-watch Honey & Clover lepastu tau-tau dah tersesat kat live action drama and movie pulak dah. Tersangkut kat drama series 'Koinaka' or in English, 'Love Relationship'. Suka dengan hero cerita tu iaitu Fukushi Sato. Lepastu mula lah operasi menyelongkar dramas+movies yang dilakonkan oleh Fukushi Sota. Banyak adaptation dari manga and anime rupanya sampaikan Fukushi Sota digelar 'Prince of Shoujo Anime/Manga Adaptation' disebabkan paras rupa and character dia yang sesuai dengan watak utama dalam kebanyakan shoujo anime Jepun. 

And now, dah tersangkut dengan Fukushi Sota pulak dah =,=" walaupun dia lahir tahun 1993 which means he is 2 years younger than me. Oh well, age is just a number when it comes to love right? Chia Chia Chia!~ [OMG! GEDIK GILERRR KAU NADIAA!!!] Tak sabar nak tunggu Bleach live action tahun 2018 nanti sebab Fukushi Sota pegang watak Ichigo, shinigami berambut orange! Fuhh!!~ Mesti ohsem! Mula-mula tengok dia dalam cerita 'Strobe Edge' jadi hero, kaku giler dia dalam cerita tu. Lepastu entah macam mana boleh tertengok cerita horror 'As God Will' yang sumpah seram dan thriller habis! Dia jadi lead jugak and dalam cerita tu nampak lah sisi lain lakonan dia. Cewwah, dah macam pengulas filem lah pulok. :P

Tapi setakat ini aku paling suka watak dia dalam cerita 'Koinaka', seorang lelaki yang minat komik One Piece, bercita-cita nak jadi arkitek, and masih simpan perasaan pada cinta pertama merangkap bestfriend dia yang hilang secara tiba-tiba satu masa dahulu. Dalam cerita tu kita boleh tengok macam mana seorang lelaki berfikir and bertindak dalam satu-satu isu yang melibatkan hati dan perasaan serta persahabatan. It's a worth watching drama in my opinion sebab dia tak meleret, 9 episod je semuanya and dalam 1 episod tu macam-macam boleh jadi, haha, so jangan missed any episod. And ianya realistik tentang kehidupan seorang dewasa di bandar besar plus ada certain part sangat beri inspirasi pada penonton seperti aku. And yeah, 9 episod adalah tidak mencukupi bagi aku, perlu 16 or 20 episod macam drama Korea. Haha!

Lagi satu cerita 'Say I Love You', still Fukushi Sota jadi hero. Cerita dia kinda klise bagi aku, pasal seorang pelajar lelaki popular jatuh hati pada seorang perempuan plain jane yang selalu jadi mangsa buli. Tapi sebab ada Fukushi Sota yang hemsem, cerita dia jadi best. Haha! But then versi anime dia lagi best kot. Kat bawah ni gif dari cerita tu kidnapped from Tumblr. Maigod, meltingg 100 degree celcius! Chia Chia Chia~

Ok bye, nak tidur mimpi Fukushi Sota! 

Ja, mata ne (~^_^)~

Tips Kerja #1

There is more in life...

To the girls who go on dates after dates, looking for the “one”. For the women who hopelessly wait for the man of their dreams to show up at their door any second, and for the ones who feel miserable about themselves because they don’t have a significant other, life is so much more than a waiting game. Life is so much more than finding a special someone. Life is about more than just a boy. The first time I fell in love, I made the mistake of making him my life. Everything that I did, and everything that I thought about, was up to him. Because in my head, I thought that’s how relationships were supposed to be like. I was in love with him, but it wasn’t healthy. Thinking back to that time in my life, it was beautiful, but also very scary. I didn’t realize that I had lost myself in him. And I ultimately cared about him more than I cared about myself.

When it ended and I was left with just myself, I didn’t know how to cope. For so many years of my life, I depended on him and he depended on me. I didn’t know how to be happy with just me. I didn’t know how to live my life to the fullest if it wasn’t with him anymore. It took a long time for me to love myself without a guy loving me too. It took a lot of months, and years to become whole without another human being by my side. And after I finally healed, and grew up more, I vowed to never do that again. I never wanted to lose myself in someone else again. I never wanted to grow so attached to someone, that without them, I would fall apart.

I am my own whole person without needing anyone else to make me smile. And you are your own person too. You are allowed to be happy by yourself. You are allowed to live a full life without someone holding your hand every step of the way. After all, you are supposed to love yourself the hardest, not the fantasy in your head about the guy who will sweep you off your feet. It’s time to put your big girl shoes on now. It’s time to look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are enough. You shine without needing a diamond ring on your finger. You shine without needing to be someone else’s sun. You are your own sun. And that’s how it always should be.

You need to put yourself first. Because at the end of the day, you are going to leave this earth by yourself just like you entered it by yourself. You need to become your own best friend, your own mentor, your own therapist and your own hero. Sweet girl, a boy isn’t going to save you. A boy isn’t going to magically make you happy. That’s all up to you. It’s all up to you. So, please, I hope you know that you can actually take a deep breath by yourself without choking. I hope you know that you can jump without being scared of falling. This is your time to jump and to fly, to live fearlessly, to climb your own mountain, and to go out and live your life instead of waiting by an unopened window.

Open your doors for yourself, break down the locked windows, and jump down the tower you have built for yourself to hide from the world around you. Go outside and actually experience what it’s like to take a walk alone with just your thoughts. Drink coffee at a cafe without asking a friend to go with you. Enjoy yourself, and you will be surprised by what new things and what new people might come into your life. So, stop waiting, and wishing. And start building up your life to begin again. :)

Excited me.

Dulu-dulu pernah berangan, teringin sangat nak kerja kat dalam bangunan menara berkembar KLCC. Nampak best sebab tinggi dan boleh ber-window shopping time lunch hour. Tapi apakan daya, siapalah diri ini, ingin berangan setinggi langit. Sobs. 

Tapi once dapat offer dari Manpower, terus tiba-tiba angan-angan lama tu macam berputik kembali. Sebab location office Manpower betul-betul sebelah shopping mall Mid Valley, and bangunan tu tinggi jugak. Walaupun tak setinggi KLCC, hajat untuk ber-window shopping time lunch hour tercapai lah jugak yedok? Hehe. 

Hari ni buat experiment perjalanan dari rumah ke stesen LRT Alam Megah ke stesen LRT KL Sentral kemudian transit naik KTM ke Mid Valley. Campur tolak semua waktu menunggu, waktu berjalan semua lebih kurang 1 jam 40 minit. Hmm.. Boleh tahan lenguh jugak kaki ni berdiri. Kena practice lagi ni nampaknya. 

Sampai je Mid Valley terus cari location office Manpower untuk familiar-kan diri cari route terdekat ke office once turun dari KTM dan masuk ke Mid Valley. Bila rasa macam ok, boleh ingat, terus ajak Mama, Adik, and Baby pergi makan kat foodcourt junction. Boleh tahan best jugak foodcourt kat situ sebab ada variety jenis makanan. Mama siap cakap, "Kakak nanti lunch hour makan kt sini je lah. Nanti recommend kat kitorang yang mana paling sedap." Arasso Mama! ;D

Lepastu jumpa banyak sangat restoran makanan jepun and korea. Plus stall-stall yang jual makanan ringan dari korea. Aaaaarghh~ I just can't help myself >_<

Kau sabar jap wahai kedai-kedai dalam Mid Valley, jangan cuba menggoda daku teruk-teruk sangat. Pitih pun belum ada lagi ni. Hehe. Wish me luck in my career endeavors! (^_^)y

This is Pure Happiness

"So excited to share my happy news with my FB family!
I finally found my soulmate, my perfect match, my boo. After 7 long months, I found the perfect job with a company that truly cares about its employees and one I will learn so much from."
#employed #myboo #loveatfirstinterview #LTR #careergrowth #perfectmatch #photoshoot #notjustforbabiesmarriagesandbirthdays #workin9to5

 - Benita Abraham 

I would probably do this once I got my permanent job after the training ended.

Hihi.

Self Reminders.

Alhamdulillah.

Sebenarnya plan hari ni nak pergi cari kerja part time dekat Putra Heights/Main Place/One City, tapi disebabkan sedikit masalah teknikal, plan hari ini terpaksa dibatalkan. So macam biasa, rutin harian guwe, bukak email, bukak jobstreet, bukak portal, dan sebagainya. Tiba-tiba pukul 3pm tadi bukak email, dapat satu email dari Manpower. Alhamdulillah. Buah anggur muda dah mula kelihatan. Hehe. Hasil pergi interview dengan Manpower dekat Midvalley seminggu lepas dah dapat jawapan. 

Manpower adalah salah satu recruitment agency yang membantu fresh grads mostly untuk cari pekerjaan yang sesuai di samping memberikan latihan soft skills. Apa yang aku suka pasal Manpower ni adalah dia provide 'win-win' situation pada para graduan yang mengikuti training dengan agency ni. Lepas 2 weeks of training, dia akan hantar kita pergi interview dengan MNC. If kita tak berjaya untuk dapatkan mana-mana position, dia akan hantar kita ke On-Job training. Dekat situ boleh lah kita perform so that company tu akan serap kita. If tak berjaya jugak, Manpower sendiri yang akan serap kita untuk berkerja dengan company mereka. Bonus point, Manpower provide allowance pada trainee sebanyak RM1500. Hehe, siapa yang tak mau kan?

Berbeza dengan SL1M yang syaratnya agak ketat, pemohon mestilah seorang graduan yang masih belum pernah berkerja sejurus selepas bergraduasi dalam tempoh 6 bulan. Dan lepas training, pemohon akan dihantar interview untuk mana-mana job offer. If tak berjaya dapatkan position dalam mana-mana company, then itulah penamatnya. Just boleh isi dalam resume, yang pemohon pernah ikuti training SL1M pada sekian tarikh. Actually, au dah banyak kali dapat call dari SL1M dari berbeza agency, but then bila diorang tanya bila last final exam, aku jawab June, terus depa kata nanti akan call semula. Sah-sah lah tak layak untuk proceed kan. 

IT Management Trainee. Itu programme yang aku pilih. Mungkin terlalu lari dari bidang asal aku, Biomedical Electronic Engineering. Even interviewer pun tanya 2-3 kali, tak apa ke kalau mereka nak tempatkan aku pada position yang tak berkaitan langsung dengan qualification aku? Aku cakap tak apa, aku suka computer. Jadi kalau boleh aku nak gain more knowledge and experiences tentang IT dan mantapkan lagi kebolehan aku dalam menguasai IT. Orang kata, dalam kegawatan ekonomi zaman sekarang ni, kita tak boleh memilih kerja. Aku jawab, OK! ARASSO! :) 

Little Shy Caterpillar.

 The shy caterpillar watched the vivacious butterfly wishing that it too 

could be like that when in fact it will. Its just a matter of time.

This is my version of heartbreak.

I used to feel this way...

But then I realize, 

I understood myself better only after I destroyed myself.

And only in the process of fixing myself, did I know who I really was.
Plus, I'm a lot more happier now.

:)

It started with a joke...

 

Terjumpa this post in my newsfeed, then tetiba tangan macam gatal nak comment something...

And then, *POOF*!

Muncul dua kotak pizza dan satu kotak mozarella cheese bread depan rumah!

Ok tipu je, ia tak muncul secara tiba-tiba pun. Ia muncul selepas beberapa siri cubaan dan bermacam alasan untuk mematikan niat Hafiz yang ingin membelanja dan menghantar pizza sehingga ke depan rumah, akhirnya aku redha dan pasrah. Cis. Serba salah aku dibuatnya sebab dah menyusahkan orang lain =,=" By the way, Thanks Apis, you're the best! (Takmo puji depan-depan, nanti hidung dia kembang). Hehe.

Julai - Bulan berehat, Ogos - Ayuh kita warm up!

The thing is, I have become far too good at being alone.
What makes it worse is that I am somehow okay with that.

1. The friends you have at the beginning of the year can completely change by the end of it. People change, and if they aren’t improving your life in some way, it’s okay to drop them.

2. Take many pictures. Don’t let it take over your life, though. You don’t want to look back and see that you only captured your memories with your camera lens and not within your mind and heart.

3. Find your safe place. Whether it be in the arms of a certain person or on the balcony of Barnes and Nobles with a cup of soup, find it and don’t let it go. You can have more than one safe place.

4. Be nice to everyone. You honestly don’t know what skeletons people are hiding in their closets. Everyone has their skeleton. Every person on this earth has something in their life or past worth collapsing on the ground in uncontrollable sobs over.

5. Reading is so important. Highlight the things that you read that you find intriguing. Read a lot, it can only do good things for you.

6. Writing always helps.

7. The girl with anxiety has the deepest thoughts. The autistic boy has the kindest heart, and the schizophrenic has the ability to put a smile on your face in seconds. Do not judge character based on a mental illness.

8. Music has an indescribable ability to connect and heal. Let it do its thing.

9. Her prettiness doesn’t make your prettiness any less pretty.

10. Getting close and letting someone in is scary as hell. You know what else it is? Worth it.

11. The minute you feel your happiness being dictated by someone else, take a break from them.

12. Adventuring is a must. Sunsets always help the soul, showing that endings can be as beautiful as beginnings.

13. Spend more time with your parents doing things they enjoy. Later in life, you’ll be wishing you’d spent more time with them than on your Netflix account.

14. Home is not always a place, but whatever you love with your whole heart. I have many homes, and it’s okay if one home doesn’t feel like home anymore.

15. Making someone smile and feel genuinely happy has the ability to warm your heart from the inside out. No matter how much pain someone is going through, you made them forget about it for a few seconds. Isn’t that something?

16. Feel everything and let it hurt, but don’t go back to what broke you.

17. Don’t let fear hold you back from what you want. The view from the other side is spectacular.

18. Tell people how you feel. Even if you’re scared it’ll burn your life to the ground. You say it loud.

19. You find the most extraordinary things in the most ordinary places.

20. Swollen lips and sweaty “I want you’s” can make you feel again, but I don’t want to feel anything if it means having to sit there feeling like the wind is constantly being knocked out of me when he stops calling back.

21. Sometimes the way you think of someone isn’t the way they actually are.

22. Never underestimate the amount of joy the holiday season can bring you. Try and find ways to feel that way all year long.

23. Timing is never going to be perfect; if you care about something enough, you’ll make the time. It’s all about priorities.

24. If women used their words to build each other up instead of tearing each other down, our world would change drastically.

25. Recovery can take 2 weeks or 5 years. You aren’t any less of a person if it takes you longer to find a way to let go of what’s hurting your heart.

26. You only need yourself, but having people by your side trying to understand means a lot more than you might think.

27. You find your truest friends in your darkest hours.

28. You can feel the whole world in a month and nothing after 2 years. Time does not define love.

29. Always say yes to dessert.

30. Concerts make life worth living. So does yelling your favorite song along with your best friend in the car with your best friend with hands intertwined. These are things that show you that you don’t need to be on drugs to feel invincible.